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third times a charm

30 Nov

I’m starting over with P90X. Yep, you heard me. Starting over. The last time I posted about P90X, I was working out everyday and determined to finish the program. Then I found I was pregnant, so I stopped. Then I had a miscarriage which still didn’t give me any motivation to start back up again.

I’ve wanted to start exercising again, and everytime Monday rolls around I think “Ok, this is it! I’m gonna start as soon as it’s Monday!” But Monday would come and go and I’ve just had no motivation for working out again. I’ve spent the last two months trying to process everything that’s happened. Sad at loosing our baby. Mad about Jay’s layoff, but relieved and happy about it too. I’m thankful that things have happened the way that they have, don’t get me wrong.

But I am human. And there is a huge element of sadness, anger and frustration that I’ve been trying to sort out. I’ve been angry at people and friends, if I’m being honest here. There’s people that were in my life for years who’ve vanished- people who I thought we’d be friends with for the rest of our lives. I don’t know what to do with that. I’ve been processing different kinds of anxiety all while being SO busy- there hasn’t been enough time to process all of it.

And I feel sad about it.

I’ll admit I’ve been stress eating. Doesn’t it just make you feel better? It makes me feel better sometimes. And if you know me at all, you know that is not like me in the least. I am usually really careful about what I eat. I’ve done Weight Watchers for years and have been very successful at it- loosing over 40 pounds in a 16 week period. And after I had Cruz I lost all my baby weight pretty quickly, was back into my clothes, no big deal. But these past couple months I just haven’t cared really. Which is not like me at all.

So, I finally got my motivation back up. I feel like I’ve been sulking and angry for too long over stuff. I’ve had my share of depressed eating. And now, it’s time to get back into shape. I’m not going to post when I started up again or my goal end date (I have already started the program). I’m not going to post pictures or post my weekly progress. This time, I’m doing this for me so I can get back into shape for me. I’m trying not to be sad over having that miscarriage- even though I know a part of me always will be. I’m trying not to be mad at people in my life and just hand it over to God for Him to take care of. I’m ready to eat better and make smarter choices. And I’m really determined to not fall off the wagon again.

And I have to do it. I have to do it to stay healthy for me, Cruz, Jason. All kinds of reasons. But mostly because when I’ve put weight on, it usually means that I’m stressed, anxious, sad or unhappy about something. And I just can’t go through life this way. There’s been days where it’s just been hard to get out of bed. I’m exhausted on top of it. To sum it up, I just haven’t really been taking care of myself or putting me first. And that’s a dangerous road to start on, because I always told myself that as I mom I would never do that. But it’s so, so, easy to put everyone else in your home first and to let yourself go.

I’m working very hard at not letting this happen to me. I’ve sulked long enough. I’ve started forcing myself out of bed about an hour and a half before Cruz wakes up- just so I can be by myself, wake up, blog, read my bible. That way I can workout when he’s napping and not feel guilty that other things aren’t getting done. I’m trying to eat better and make better choices there. I’m doing P90X everyday, and so super sore, it’s not even funny. I’m trying to go to bed early. I’m trying not to stress that my house isn’t perfectly dusted and spick n span. That’s a hard one for me, because I love my house clean. But I’m trying to get a handle on what’s important for ME.

Because if I’m taking care of myself, then taking care of Jason and Cruz and other eventual children to come will fall into place. It’s hard to do this everyday.

So there’s the update in case you, dear reader, were wondering what ever happened to my P90X ventures. Well, there haven’t been any P90X ventures for a while. But now I’m getting back on track.

And now here’s a picture of Audio, my dog. Because I don’t really think you want to see pictures of me doing P90X. Yikes.

second chance

7 Sep

We all deserve a second chance, right? 

I have completely failed at completing P90X the first time around. Not only is the workout extremely intense, but it requires an hour or more commitment 6 days out of 7. Now, I don’t know about you, but finding time to shower each day is a challenge enough. I know it seems like I would have all the time in the world- being a stay at home mom and all. But let me just tell you, being a mom is the hardest, most time consuming thing I’ve ever done. And then I’m working full time on top of it.

Showering is a luxury these days, let alone getting in a good workout. 


But I have to commit to it. I have to. I need to start over and get myself into better shape. Something is going to have to take a back seat here, and it’s not going to be my health. The house cleaning can wait. And it will, let me tell you. 

So I am starting over. Today. September 7th, 2009 is DAY 1. 

In doing 90 days of P90X, my last day- the day in which I complete the program- will be December 5th, 2009. Just in time for the holidays.

Whatever that means. 

Please help keep me accountable. I really want to do this, but need encouragement from YOU to make it a priority every single day. It’s hard. It’s a lot of work.

Most things that are good in life are just that way it seems. It’ll be worth it in the end.  



8 Jun

p90xI was doing laundry yesterday- our clothes had spent enough time on the floor I guess. I thought I’d actually hang them up for once.

I picked up a pair of my jeans and didn’t like what I saw.

While I ‘have’ lost all my baby weight, I still feel as though I have a few more pounds to loose and better yet- get toned up.

I’m tired of not being in shape.

And after having a baby, my body just feels different. It’s time to take action.

So literally- and I mean literally- Jason and I scraped together every penny, nickel, dime and quarter we had in our wallets and house. Cashed it in, and actually had enough to purchase our new workout plan!


Several people I know are doing this, and they all look awesome.

Then I was speaking to a friend of mine who is a personal trainer, and when she recommended P90X, that did it for me.

I’ve heard that it’s really hard, intense and that I should be ready to be more sore than I’ve ever been.

Bring it on because I need to be in better shape than I was before I got pregnant.

And posting this in some way, is a good form of accountability for me. It’s out there. You’re reading this. And I really want to post the results in 90 days.

I start this Friday- once it actually arrives in the mail.

Until then I will rest and take advantage of these few days of no working out.