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good. night.

31 May

That is what I say when something has been intense, overwhelming, exhausting or is unbelievable. To which, these past few months have been ALL of those things on EVERY level possible. I have been the worst blogger EVER lately. It’s because I have literally have had to PLAN OUT WHEN I SLEEP WE HAVE BEEN THAT BUSY.

I have nothing to complain about. But it has been a whirlwind and I am tired. And the first thing to fly out the window was blogging, unfortunately.

I have been busy with this:

And this:

And this:

OH. AND THIS:

And this:

This:

And this:

And this:

This:

More of this:

THE LIST GOES ON. Seriously. The list seriously goes on. I’m up to my nose hairs in edits.

(I don’t actually have nose hairs. That’s gross.)

You know how this feels, right?? It’s been a crazy season and while I am hoping that it will slow down a little bit, my inbox and calendar are telling me otherwise. BUT, now that the spring wedding season is almost over, I DO hope that I can catch my breath, clean my house and bake something.

Who am I kidding? I don’t bake.

But you know what I mean. RELAX a little bit. Even just take one nap. That would be awesome.

It’s been a fantastic couple of months. I am FOREVER grateful to all of the people who help us watch our boys so we can go work and do what we love. Gosh, I’m forever grateful. None of this would be possible without the help of many people. I’ve shed lots of stressed out tears this season, as I usually do when I’m under stress, pressure or intense deadlines. I’ve never laughed harder, slept less, and been more thankful in all my life.

So this Spring wedding season concludes our second year as Session Nine Photographers. We head into our third year, already with exciting news. Well, news I can’t share EXACTLY right now. But I CAN tell you that we have been asked to submit MANY images into a popular bridal magazine for publish!! We are stoked.

Gosh it’s been a lot of work. I KNOW you know what I’m saying. If you are a working mom (or even if you aren’t!), you know what I’m saying when I say that working full time and trying to be a good, present mom is HARD. It’s exhausting.

It’s worth it. I love it. The good, bad, stressful and exciting. I love all of it.

Here’s to June! May the Summer be as exciting as this past Spring was! With hopefully a lot more sleep in my future. HA!

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omg.

15 May

Exactly what I need. Another time suck. Who else is obsessed with Pinterest??? I can’t seem to get away from it and I simply LOVE it. Wow. But I seriously don’t need SOMETHING ELSE to take up the little amount of time I have each day. This is crazy.

Life is crazy. Short and sweet. Check out Pinterest. If you want an invite, let me know. Follow me. I’ll follow you back.

You’ll be hooked.

baby weight woes

6 Apr

I am still doing Weight Watchers. I’m just really struggling with it, I’ll be honest. This whole baby weight thing SUCKS, big time. I had a bawling breakdown about it recently. Can you relate?

My problem is that now that I’ve had children, I can’t just change what I eat and drop 40 pounds like I used to be able to. I really need to be working out, and working out hard, in order to watch it disappear. The problem with that, is that my plate is full, I am exhausted, and can’t imagine WHERE I’m going to get an extra hour every day to work out. I try to do 20 minutes, which is better than nothing, but I really think I need more than that.

Plus, I’m frustrated with it, so that doesn’t help in the motivation area.

I’m not really eating bad. But I’ve slid away from my points a little bit. Mostly because I am tired. Well, exhausted really. And when I have to decide if I’m going to sleep or workout, I choose sleep because I don’t get much of it anyways. Any less sleep will not be a good thing for this mamma.

So I think I’m going to try to get it together, come up with some sort of workout plan that I can handle, and get back on track with counting my points. It’s just really hard to focus on all these details for myself when I’ve got others to think about and take care of all day and SO many work details flying at me too. This is always the first thing to go, and I really hate that.

So I haven’t updated on my weight ventures in awhile and now you know why. After I had Cruz, I lost ALL my baby weight in three weeks. THREE. It just fell off. But this time around is much, much harder. I wish I had a lot more time to JUST focus on getting rid of it, but I just don’t. Talk about self image struggles, right?

I know all of you can relate to this. It’s not the motivation I lack. It’s the time. And while I wish I had just a FEW more hours to each and every day, I obviously don’t. So, I’m taking a breath, getting refocused, and I’m going to figure something out.

Because this baby weight has GOT to go.

And PS: I’m not even going to post a picture here. When searching the term ‘baby weight’ to find an appropriate picture, all that comes up is pictures of HEIDI KLUM. Ya, that makes me feel better! NOT.

(Yes, I just said NOT.)

past times

17 Dec

Lately I’ve really been working on tummy time with Rider. He’s starting to gain a lot of strength in his neck and I think he might even roll over soon! We will see. He laughed for the first time last week, and I actually caught it on video!! So, the milestones are really picking up now that he’s 3.5 months and I have to say, these are the things that I look forward to very much. I enjoy the newborn stage for certain things, but the truth of the matter is, is that it’s just really hard. It’s such a period of transition, adjustment and learning new things about yourself, baby and a whole new family dynamic. It’s a time of little sleep, lots of tears and also a lot of joy at the same time. It’s an amazing time, as it’s all new and exciting. But it’s just really hard. With Cruz and Rider both, once they hit about 3 months old is when I truly started really enjoying them. Is that bad to say? Their personalities just start coming through at that point and it starts to get really, really fun. And both of their sleep patterns got very consistent at about 3 months which obviously helps a lot.

That goes without saying.

So I’ve been giving Rider a lot of tummy time and he’s starting to notice his surroundings a lot! He smiles at Cruz (who is STILL trying to figure out his little brother) and he loves smiling and “talking” to Jason and I. It’s the best to hear his little coos and see his little smile. I love all the stages he’s about to hit. I honestly can’t wait for him to start crawling and walking.

Gosh it’s just really fun.

So that’s what we’ve been up to! Actually, truth be told, we’ve been up to A LOT more than that lately. Jason has been UBER busy so I’ve played “single mommy” roll a lot lately. He obviously helps tremendously when he’s home, but tis the season for him to be gone a lot with work etc. So we are all pretty tired and I haven’t even started Christmas shopping yet. People that are done shopping before Thanksgiving are my heros. I’ve just never been that ambitious I guess! Ha!

Anyways.

We’re hanging in there. Trying to enjoy the season as much as possible. Loving the rainy days we’ve had this week. Pretty much the same as everyone else. And I can’t believe it’s going to be 2011 in a matter of days. DAYS.

And this is a pretty recent past time for Cruz. We always tell him that that is ‘yucky’, but he still can’t help himself. Ha!

no motivation

23 Oct

I have no motivation to write much tonight. I really, really want to. But I am exhausted.

Truly, exhausted.

When I sat down to write this post, I noticed the time. And I realized that I most likely have 10 minutes until Rider is going to wake up and want to eat again. So that means I will have had a whole ten minutes to myself today, which makes for one exhausting day.

Kids are exhausting. If you’re a mamma, you know that this is true. That the word tired has no meaning until you have children. I can’t believe I thought I was tired before they were born.

Oh well. Some days are better than others. And while I’m exhausted today (and will be praying for amazing sleep tonight), I can only hope, pray and know that tomorrow has to be better. And today wasn’t even a bad day! It was just an exhausting one!

And there’s the baby. Which means my ten minutes are up.

rider’s room

5 Jun

I’m almost 6.5 months pregnant and I’m sorry to say that this is the current state of Rider’s future room:

Now, I know we’ve been very, very busy. But looking at the calendar ahead, IT’S NOT GOING TO SLOW DOWN MUCH. The Lord knows I’m grateful for the business, for a lot of friends to meet and stay connected with, and for opportunities at our finger tips.

But this is my next project that is slightly overwhelming. When are there NOT things overwhelming me? HA.

So two things I need to figure out in the 3.5 months I have before my second little boy is here: 1). Get Cruz to sleep in a big boy bed and 2). Find a dresser for Rider’s room

Did anyone else panic at the fact that I said there’s 3.5 months until Rider’s here????? Because I’m pretty sure I just had a small panic attack.

meltdown

25 Mar

I had a complete meltdown the other night. It needed to happen, I think. It was good for my soul. And I can think a lot more clear now that I’ve gotten all my emotions out of the way.

I’ve been pretty stressed out these past couple weeks. We have a lot going on. Always. We always have a lot going on. Life doesn’t ever slow down for us, even if we try to make it. I thought once the holidays past, we’d be able to breathe. I thought our photography business would slow down a little bit, which I didn’t want and I did want all at the same time. I love my job and staying busy has just been amazing. I just thought that naturally, there’d be a slope in the amount of business we had after the holidays.

We don’t have an open slot until June.

Don’t get me wrong- I am incredibly blessed, grateful and humbled to be this busy. I get to work full time at home, with my son sitting on my lap! It doesn’t get any better.

Throw that into the mix with Jason starting a new job, trying to move up to Scottsdale, getting our house ready to rent out, actually renting out our current house, chasing after a toddler, buying a new car AND having another baby. Another baby??!! I have to be this busy AND add another baby to the mix?? Whoa.

This pregnancy has been completely different than my pregnancy with Cruz- including hormonally. When I was pregnant the first time around, I’m pretty sure I was on the brink of tears for nine straight months. I felt so bad for my family, friends and mostly Jason. Anything could piss me off, make me bawl or just simply insecure. It was so weird because I’m not typically like that at all. I’m an emotional woman normally, but to a healthy extent. During my pregnancy with Cruz, I was a wreck. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. It was horrible. So I didn’t have to deal with morning sickness or any major food aversions (except chicken!) but I was about to bawl in your face at any given moment the entire time. Awful.

*sigh*

This time around, I think I’ve been completely depleted of all emotions. I can tear up a little, and only at certain things. But mostly, I don’t really feel emotional about anything- especially not like I did with Cruz. Things that would normally hurt my feelings or make me cry, don’t. It’s weird. I’ll be thinking, Wow, that should really hurt my feelings but for some reason it doesn’t. Strange. So I’m sure it’s been building up inside for awhile.

I had a minor set back during one of my edits on this same particular night- the one with my meltdown. Don’t worry, it ultimately resolved itself. But, while I was in the midst of it, it sent me into a mild version of what I call, a meltdown. Jason was just sitting on the opposite couch from me wondering, I’m sure, What the hell is happening? I started sobbing about any and every little thing that’s been building in my heart over the past couple months- mostly about the things I listed above. After I finished sobbing- seriously about an hour later- and realized that it was midnight and that I need to go to bed, I actually felt a lot better.

The truth is, there is a lot going on in my life that is giving me so much anxiety. Which is stupid really, because at the end of the day, everything usually gets done right? Maybe not all the dishes or laundry or yard work. But the things that are super important always get done. But right now, I have all of these small and large tasks on my ‘To Do’ list everyday, and to be honest- figuring out how to do all of them AND be a full time mommy is super hard! I hit a wall the other night, got it all out of my system, went to bed and actually woke up feeling a lot more clear about my life and what actually is on my plate.

It’s amazing how a little meltdown can actually allow things to be a lot more clear.

I would never change where I’m at in this life. I wouldn’t change one single thing about it. Well, I actually would hire a full time maid to clean my house if I could afford it, not gonna lie. But aside from that, I wouldn’t change anything. BUT, for any mom- working inside the house, working outside the home, or not working at all, balancing everything is very hard to do. And at moments where I think we couldn’t possibly get busier in our lives, we do. And I’m still navigating how to actually do this thing called ‘full time working mom’. It’s not easy. Every day is a balancing act. And every day usually doesn’t turn out how I thought it would. I’m trying to go with the flow, release control and just focus on one day at a time. Not tomorrow, or next week or next month. Wow, that’s hard for me.

I’m so thankful that God’s grace is sufficient for me, today, right where I’m at. He sees me in my ‘meltdown moments’ and understands my heart. And it’s comforting to know that I’m not the only mamma (or woman!) who feels like they’re going crazy at times. We’re all just doing the best we can, with what we’ve been given. And that’s all we can do.