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baby weight woes

6 Apr

I am still doing Weight Watchers. I’m just really struggling with it, I’ll be honest. This whole baby weight thing SUCKS, big time. I had a bawling breakdown about it recently. Can you relate?

My problem is that now that I’ve had children, I can’t just change what I eat and drop 40 pounds like I used to be able to. I really need to be working out, and working out hard, in order to watch it disappear. The problem with that, is that my plate is full, I am exhausted, and can’t imagine WHERE I’m going to get an extra hour every day to work out. I try to do 20 minutes, which is better than nothing, but I really think I need more than that.

Plus, I’m frustrated with it, so that doesn’t help in the motivation area.

I’m not really eating bad. But I’ve slid away from my points a little bit. Mostly because I am tired. Well, exhausted really. And when I have to decide if I’m going to sleep or workout, I choose sleep because I don’t get much of it anyways. Any less sleep will not be a good thing for this mamma.

So I think I’m going to try to get it together, come up with some sort of workout plan that I can handle, and get back on track with counting my points. It’s just really hard to focus on all these details for myself when I’ve got others to think about and take care of all day and SO many work details flying at me too. This is always the first thing to go, and I really hate that.

So I haven’t updated on my weight ventures in awhile and now you know why. After I had Cruz, I lost ALL my baby weight in three weeks. THREE. It just fell off. But this time around is much, much harder. I wish I had a lot more time to JUST focus on getting rid of it, but I just don’t. Talk about self image struggles, right?

I know all of you can relate to this. It’s not the motivation I lack. It’s the time. And while I wish I had just a FEW more hours to each and every day, I obviously don’t. So, I’m taking a breath, getting refocused, and I’m going to figure something out.

Because this baby weight has GOT to go.

And PS: I’m not even going to post a picture here. When searching the term ‘baby weight’ to find an appropriate picture, all that comes up is pictures of HEIDI KLUM. Ya, that makes me feel better! NOT.

(Yes, I just said NOT.)

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getting it better

11 Feb

I had a great weigh-in yesterday! This is my second week back at doing Weight Watcher’s the right way (meaning, I’m not just tracking my points SOME of the time, but ALL of the time) and it’s really making a difference. I wish I wouldn’t have been so lazy about it earlier and maybe I actually could have lost the weight before 2011. But no regrets, only looking forward right? I weighed in yesterday and I lost five pounds this week! FIVE! I was on cloud nine when I stepped off the scale and it was really the motivation boost I needed to get me started on week 3. I stayed for the meeting again and it was PACKED this time. I’m not sure why, but it was nice for it to be full. I’m really loving this program this time around. I love the changes they’ve made to it. And I love that it actually really works. And that it works while I definitely ate a Big Mac last week. I didn’t have fries with it, but I for sure ate a Big Mac. Ha. It’s awesome that I don’t have to cut anything out of my diet. Because this isn’t a diet. It’s a life change and a different frame of mind. But I can still eat some of my favorite foods, whenever I want. You know what I call this?

FREEDOM.

I’m not tied to cutting out carbs or dairy or sweets or anything like that. And if you really work the program, it’ll really work for you. Do I sound like a commercial? Yes, I do tend to sound that way when talking about Weight Watchers because I love it that much, believe in it that much and it’s works like crazy.

During the meeting yesterday, my team leader talked a lot about emotional eating. When he first brought it up I thought, ‘Oh I’m definitely not an emotional eater,’ and I think to SOME extent this is true. But according to his definition of emotional eating, I think WE ALL have fallen victim to it. And it doesn’t mean that you’re a hot mess too, just because you’re an ’emotional eater’.

Emotional eating is eating anytime you are not hungry.

Whoops. Yep, I’ve definitely done that. Do you know what it feels like to feel actually hungry? To eat something not just because it’s lunchtime but because you’re actually hungry? What a concept, huh? That is after all, how God created us but I do it all the time. Eat with kids when I’m not really starving. Or skip breakfast because I think it will help me. Why am I not listening to my body?? So I started thinking about what I’m feeling when I’m eating when I’m not hungry. And I concluded to two different things: Boredom and Anxiety. Weird huh? I don’t really eat when I’m sad or mad or happy. If I had a bad day, I don’t usually think to go eat an entire pie. I like celebrating with food, sure. But EVERY time I’m happy I’m not reaching for the ice-cream. But I did realize that a lot of the time that I’m eating when I’m not hungry, it’s because I’m bored or need a pick me up. Or I’m eating because I feel anxious and it does temporarily get my mind off of whatever is making me feel insecure or anxious.

Emotional eating is a learned inadequate response to life.

So I’m learning to break some bad habits I developed and actually listen to my body again. And when I’m not hungry and reaching for something salty or sweet, I’m trying to stop myself and think about what the real issue is. Last night, I wasn’t super hungry but I wanted something sweet for dessert. I stopped myself and concluded that I was just bored. I had been sitting in front of the computer for too long and needed a ‘break’. But eating when you’re not hungry shouldn’t be the break you’re looking for. I’m trying to replace those feelings with other activities- going for a walk, reading a book, cleaning something. Anything is better than snacking when I’m not hungry.

I’m also learning not to reward with food. I’m learning not to do this with Cruz, actually. I don’t want him to learn, early on, that food is a reward. It’s not. Food is something that we need every day and I don’t want to evoke emotional thoughts in him in regards to eating. When my team leader started talking about this, again I thought, “Oh that’s totally not me. I would never do that.” But then I caught myself DOING IT yesterday! Cruz fell down and was crying and really upset. He had hurt himself in the midst of his play and wouldn’t stop crying. So the words came out of my mouth so quickly, and as they were coming out I was trying to retract them, but it was too late.

“Do you want a snack??”

Appalled that I even asked that, I realized that I must do this often. He wasn’t hungry. He wasn’t asking for a snack. It wasn’t close to dinnertime. He had fallen down, hurt himself, was seeking comfort in me and I was asking him if he wanted to feel better with a snack. WHAT?! He immediately said yes, of course. So I did get him the snack. But I was mortified that I subconsciously had tried to treat the issue with food. That I was teaching him that when you’re sad or hurt, a snack will make it all better. I realize I don’t do this EVERY time he falls down. But I did realize that I do and have done this before. And now I am VERY aware of it and trying to reward and comfort him with different things. Not food. I definitely don’t want my kids to be emotional eaters, if I can help it. And I would love it if they had a very healthy response to food.

I’ve set a couple goals for myself too. I’ve decided that MY reward for losing all the baby weight is going to be two things. One, I want updated family pictures in October. It’s right in-between both boys’ birthdays and before Christmas. So it feels like a great time to schedule something like that. And two, I REALLY want to become a Team Leader for Weight Watchers. I’m not much of a public speaker, but I’d really love to help encourage other people to lose weight and to keep balance in their lives. Even if it’s just one meeting a week that I lead, I’d really love to be apart of that. So we’ll see. I don’t have a set date that I want the weight gone by. The sooner the better, in my opinion. So I’m attacking it like never before.

And it’s working.

Encouragement to focus on this week? It’s not about getting it right, you guys. It’s about getting it better.

weight watchers update

20 Oct

Today was the fourth week and the fourth time I weighed in at Weight Watchers in my mission to lose the baby weight. If you’ve been following my blog, you’ll remember this post which I wrote four short weeks ago. I wanted to keep you guys updated, so I thought I’d take a minute to do just that.

It’s actually going really well! It’s hard for me to remember to write down every single thing I’m eating throughout the day, because I’m trying to care for a toddler and newborn. So, I’m doing the best I can. But I am happy to say that I have lost five pounds in those four short weeks. Weight Watchers policy is that if you’re nursing they’d like to you not lose more than a pound a week to maintain your milk supply. So, I’m right on track with that! So I’ve got about 25 more pounds that I want to lose- that will get me back to the weight I was before CRUZ was born. Is it wishful thinking? Maybe. But I’ve gotta try. I only have 15 more pounds to be back at the weight I was at when I got pregnant with Rider.

I’m on my way guys! I can’t wait until I can start working out! Well, kinda. Ha.

it’s time

1 Oct

Yes. It is time to snap to it and do something about this lingering baby weight. I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking, “Jess, you JUST had a baby 5 minutes ago. You should cut yourself some slack and give yourself a break!”. And while I LOVE the way your brain works, you would be wrong. This is not the time to cut myself some slack. If I don’t jump in head first and get back on track I fear I am never going to.

SO.

I have rejoined Weight Watchers and I have begun an eating “plan” of sorts. If you’ve known me for any length of time, you should know that I had HUGE success with Weight Watchers a few years ago. I found myself in a similar situation with no baby to blame the weight gain on. I knew that I needed to loose some pounds before we actually did decide to start a family. And I am SO glad I did. I lost almost 50 pounds the first time around and became a Lifetime Member with Weight Watchers, making the program completely free for me today- especially since I am nursing! So I am doing the Nursing program with Weight Watchers and have about 30 pounds to loose. I’m starting on getting my eating and calorie intake under control so that when my doctor clears me to excersise (probably at my 6 week appointment) I can start doing P90X again.

Intense? Yes. But I refuse- REFUSE- to hang on to this baby weight. I understand that it’s important to maintain the health of the baby and pregnancy, but the baby is out now and the weight should be on it’s way as well.

Anyways. I’m blogging about this for some form of accountability. So expect updates. And if you see me, feel free to ask me how it’s going. I’ll make sure to blog updates on my successes and failures. I know every mom can relate to gaining/loosing/hanging onto weight. And it’s not an easy subject to talk about. But the way I figure it, if more of us are talking about it, maybe we’ll have less to be insecure about and more support in our lives to make the changes we need to.

So here’s to taking off the baby weight!