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harder, but worth it

6 Mar

I still feel like I’m recovering from Vegas. NO, not like THAT. I just mean, getting back into the routine of things and catching back up! BUT I’m still thinking about that week and how crazy and amazing it was all at the same time. It went by too fast if you ask me. We love traveling with the boys whenever we can. It always makes things a little bit harder. Kids are hard. And they are LOTS of work. But when I became a mom, I knew that I wasn’t going to sacrifice certain things that I loved JUST because it was harder with kids. Your life and business doesn’t have to stop once they enter your world.

But you do have to work harder.

In my experience though, it is always worth it. The sweat, the tears, the late nights, the planning, the preparation- the SACRIFICE. It’s all always worth it to make sure that you are bringing your kids along to experience something that you love to do so much. Traveling is that way for us. It’s a huge passion of ours and so whenever we can go experience something new, we bring them along! And it always takes more preparation. And there ARE certain things we might have to miss out on. But bringing our family with us while we work is something I hope we ALWAYS do.

We took Cruz and Rider onto the strip at night to see all the lights and the Bellagio fountains. Yes, we were THOSE people with a stroller on the strip. But they LOVED it. It was completely worth the efforts to take them to see the lights and the fountains and all the different fountains in Las Vegas. It was an experience that they might not have had otherwise.

And Cruz keeps talking about ‘BOSS BEGAS’ in his cute high pitched voice that just makes you want to die it’s so cute.

He LOVED every minute. I know that traveling with the kids is hard. I know that it would be easier for Jay and I to just have my mom stay home with the boys while we catch a flight there and back in the same weekend. I know we’d save a lot of money if we didn’t bring them. But it’s not about that for us. It’s about being together as a family, bringing them along with our lives, and giving them the opportunity to experience new things.

Sacrifice it might be for me. But although this job as a mamma is the hardest work I’ve ever done, I’d work even harder and sacrifice even more to give them the entire world if I could. Having them come along for the ride has been the greatest thrill of this thing called motherhood. And discovering that we actually DON’T have to sacrifice our own lives to have a family. 

It was a great week. I can’t wait until we travel again. It looks like this summer we are going to Dallas, North Carolina AND maybe NEW YORK CITY. NYC has been a life long dream of mine. So we’ll see what happens!

valentines day

14 Feb

We had such a great, simple, relaxing day. Well, until Cruz came down with a fever. I’m not quite sure what’s up with that. But I got really pretty flowers from Jay and we ordered PF Chang’s and just ate in our living room together. It was exactly how I wanted to spend today.

Want to hear something funny? We got Cruz an Angry Birds stuffed animal for Valentine’s Day. He is OBSESSED with Angry Birds. Funny thing? He has NO IDEA what it is. He calls them ‘Red Fishy Birds’ and just loves them. But he doesn’t know how to play the game, nor does he understand what it’s all about. But I think he almost passed out when he opened this today, he was SO excited.

Only our kid.




29 Jan

We started off the first week of the new year a little slow. After the initial ‘high’ from the holidays wore off, we were left looking into 2012 actually wondering what it held in store for us. Creatively, that thought left us in a slump for about four days. And in those days, we set some HUGE goals. Goals that actually still kind of frighten me a little bit. In the best way possible, of course. But we just looked at each other and said, ‘Welp. Here goes nothing!’. And then we wrote them down as if they’ve already happened.

I think there’s something amazing that happens when you actually believe you can do it too. When you set goals and you REALLY set your MIND to it.

And can I tell you something? 2012 is going to be CRAZY, as far as our goals are concerned. We aren’t even out of January yet and some of them are already beginning to take shape. And the possibility of some of these things actually ARE tangible. WHOA.

You guys. Lets work hard this year make it awesome. Because you can’t just make goals and hope that they come to you. You have to work very, very, VERY hard. And it is just possible for your passion to become your purpose. And for your goals to become items that you CAN cross off your bucket list. And it IS possible to make your own dreams come true. It takes a lot of work. A lot of prayer. A lot of patience. And flexibility.

But the sleepless nights, creative slumps, and meltdowns are ALL worth it in the end. I’m really motivated to make these goals come to reality in my life. So no matter where 2012 ACTUALLY takes us, I’m still going to reach for those stars.

And as it happens, I’ll let you know what goals we’re reaching once we reach them. So stay tuned for that.


stir crazy

19 Oct

If you’re friends with me on Facebook, you might have seen me post about how I’m going crazy being at home for so long that I started painting all the furniture.

This would be a true statement. I, right now, have big plans painting walls, tables, shelves and anything else I can get my hands onto. I just go sick of looking at my furniture and I got really tired of BROWN. So I started painting! I’m in the process of changing everything over that I can- on a budget! So Goodwill and Savers are about to seriously become my best friends as I search out some new pieces to add to my home so I can get rid of other ones. But the ones I want to keep are getting a paint job.

I found some old box shelves in my closet that I totally forgot I had. So I brought them out and gave them a facelift! They were white before, but now they are GRAY. Sounds as boring as brown?? Not to me! I’m adding in some really bold colors to compliment the grays and charcols that I’m adding into the house. I started doing this:

And it turned into this!

See the orange frames that my hubby built together? They are getting a facelift and full paint job as well! I can’t wait to start working on it!!

Cruz painted this little frog from THIS POST a couple of weeks ago. I’ve hung onto it because I thought it was so cute. Now it’s become a part of our home decor. One of those things that I’ll keep forever I think! Usually I don’t keep every piece of artwork, but I really liked the added touch that this quirky little frog gave to the shelves. Even better that it’s an original art piece by my Cruzer.

And for the update on Cruz. He SEEMS to be feeling better. No fever over 100.9 for 48 hours now. I’ve read that ear infections can last a LONG time. So I’m waiting until he’s done with his antibiotics to take him back to the doctor, UNLESS he takes a turn for the worst.


We’ve been getting out of the house for short activities and he’s just a GRUMP-A-GUS. Seriously, not happy. He’s sleeping a lot and taking long naps and still not eating much. But I can tell that getting out in little spurts is good for his morale. Who REALLY just wants to lay on the couch for two weeks watching Bugs Life and Cars over and over and over. He’s three, people. He wants to be throwing rocks and jumping through the sprinklers outside.

So we’re doing the best he can. I’m trying to discipline with some GRACE, but still, whether you’re feeling good or not there are still rules that apply.

So navigating that has been exhausting.

I’m hoping we’re almost through it and that there’s not something else that is going on with him. He hasn’t complained of much else. Just super grumpy, tired, and a slight fever just about once a day now.

*Sigh* I’m tired.

Back to painting my furniture.

work out

5 Oct

This should be easy enough to do, right?


Gosh. Finding the time, nevermind the DESIRE and ENERGY, to workout is a whole feat in itself, isn’t it?

Good lord.

I figure if I can’t at least run down this list once every day, then I’m REALLY in trouble, huh?

Try to do this with me, if you want. Just run down the list once everyday. More if you have time or really feel ambitious. If I can’t get a workout in, I’m going to commit to doing at least this. Who knows. Maybe it’ll help more than I think it will!

*Image found on Pinterest.

anniversary fun

25 Sep

Our anniversary is in two days. We will have been married for EIGHT YEARS. Crazy, right?? We’ve always talked and dreamed of going on a trip of some sorts for our anniversary- no matter how long or short it is. I’ve sort of come to the realization that we MIGHT go somewhere for our ten year.

Until NOW.

You see, September has always been a difficult time of year for us for some reason. Usually there’s always some major life change taking place and we can’t slip away on vacation to celebrate being married. One year we started building a house in September. The next we closed on it and moved in in September. One year Jay lost his job. Once year I was pregnant. Rider was born last September. The list goes on. Our anniversary comes around and we always look at each other, sigh and say ‘Maybe someday we’ll go somewhere fun.’. We always go to dinner or something, but never have we left the state to celebrate. And we’ve ALWAYS wanted to!

Well, we saw this September approaching and realized that we have an opportunity. We ACTUALLY don’t have anything going on major this month! We actually DO have the opportunity to sneak away! And while I can’t REALLY plan the future too much, if I look ahead to next September, there’s a good possibility that I MIGHT be pregnant by then (IF we have a third. The jury is still out on that one.) But then that could mean that at our ten year anniversary we COULD have a newborn or be very close to it. Which means, we won’t be sneaking away alone for a couple days to celebrate ten years.


We decided to celebrate and embrace EIGHT. And if we get to nine or ten or eleven and can embrace it in the same way, then we will. There’s no telling what the future may hold. And this September is actually proving to be one with no major life changes! So we are going on a trip together to celebrate being married for this long! And guess where we are going??

TOMORROW. We hop on a plane. Headed back to DISNEYLAND.

We love Disneyland. We actually got ENGAGED at Disneyland. And when we were trying to decide what to do, I simply said that I would LOVE to run around that theme park with him like we have so many times, but KID FREE. We love taking our kids there, don’t get me wrong. But  a chance to be there with no kids just sounds SO fun to me. HA.

So that’s what we’re doing! There’s no promises for the next year or the next. So why not just jam out of town, even if it is a short trip, and go have some fun? We can’t wait.

you are my sunshine

17 Sep

Do you ever find something that you love and you KNOW you want it SO bad because you can’t stop thinking about or looking at it?? I found this on Etsy and I REALLY REALLY want it:

I’ve sung this song to the boys every night of their lives since they were born. My mom used to sing this song to us when we were kids. And HER mom used to sing that song to her when she was a kid. Which is even more special because my grandmother was an AMAZING woman who I never met because she died of breast cancer when my mom was only 16 years old. I wish I could’ve known her.

So this little song is so special to me. I found this on Etsy and I have the perfect spot for it in my home. It’s a little on the pricey end for me, since I’d rather thrift for items or shop IKEA, but I want to save my pennies for it! And I know some of you are thinking, ‘You could totally MAKE that!’. And let me assure you… I could NOT. I’m not very crafty, although I do want to be. But I’d rather buy this and not run the risk of putting time and effort into a huge project that will likely not turn out the way I always imagined it. HA.


Isn’t this so cute though? I love it.

Happy Saturday friends!!

makeup artist

30 Aug

I used to REALLY want to be a makeup artist. I used to do makeup for the drama team in high school. While I secretly roamed around backstage taking pictures of weird things that no one else would think was beautiful.

I was MEANT to be a photographer. Since as long as I can remember. And those pictures I have are actually really cool. And none of them are digital.


I used to THINK I wanted to be a makeup artist. AND I got accepted into a really popular makeup school in Hollywood, right out of high school. So I sort of had a knack for it too! But I obviously didn’t end up going. Although, I DO wonder sometimes what my life would have looked like had I gone. Would I have done makeup for the stars?? Movies?? Musicians? Would I have gotten into theatre makeup? Scary makeup? Horror films?

Interesting, isn’t it?

It’s amazing when you look back at ALL the things you COULD have done. And look at what you DECIDED to do. Do I have any regrets? Nope. Not-A-One. But I still do love doing makeup. A lot. Not as much as I love taking pictures. But it would still be fun to do makeup on the set of a film, I think. Mostly so I could just take pictures of everything behind the scenes.

Like I said, it was in my BLOOD to be a photographer.

But I was once an aspiring makeup artist. And I would have been happy in that creative field too, I think. And I’m not sure why I didn’t go to that school. Something in my gut just told me that it wasn’t right. And that I wasn’t meant to be there. But the idea and glamour of it all still enthralls me a little.

How fun would that have been??

Do you have anything like that in your life? Something you were good at that you didn’t go do? Something you wish you did? Something you’re glad you DIDN’T do?

I’m not happy or sad either way. I’m totally content in doing what I’m doing. Because it’s clearly what I was meant to do. But I waited A LONG time after high school for things to fall into place for this to be my career. And now I’m here and wouldn’t have it any other way.

But makeup would have been fun. Isn’t it fun to create something that isn’t you or others? To turn someone into a character, is truly exhilarating. I guess that’s my job NOW sometimes. It’s fun to become who you are. And to look back at what could have been.

So, there’s a fun fact about me for today. Betchya never knew that I once aspired to paint on people’s faces with color.

Welp. I DID.

can’t sleep

17 Aug

Do you ever have nights where you just toss and turn? And do you ever have thoughts and situations in your life that just cause you to doubt everything you are doing and all that you are?

Heavy, right?

That’s where I’m at tonight. It’s all going to be ok. I have so much on my mind. So much to process. I think it sounds worse than it is. Maybe? I’m not sure. For now, I’m wishing for sleep. But I think instead I’m going to end up watching the sunrise.

When you think you’ve got things figured out, just remember:

You probably don’t. 


14 Jul

It’s kind of hard to believe that today I am twenty-nine. I’ve officially begun the last year of my twenties. Weird, right? Next year I’ll be THRITY!!


Actually, I am thrilled to be twenty-nine. No, honestly. I am! I think being in your twenties is such a mix of amazement, growth, fun, and horrible learning experiences that you could not PAY ME to go through again. Am I right?? When I think back to when I was twenty-one, or twenty-seven even, I am a COMPLETELY different person than I am today. It’s kind of crazy to think about all the growth that happens in your twenties.

But don’t get me wrong! There’s so many amazing things that happen besides learning hard lessons while you’re in your twenties. I got married, I had two of my children, I started a career that I’m wildly passionate about. All of those things have contributed greatly to the growth of my twenties, but they have been amazing things! Each challenging at times, but fun, exciting, and life changing. I wouldn’t change anything about my twenties. Not one. single. thing.

Would I do it all over again? NOT IN A MILLION YEARS.

I am grateful to be at the end of this chapter in my life and entering the last year of this decade. I finally feel like I know myself. I finally feel like I know what I want out of life, friends, family, and my future. I have the best friends I am ever going to have and I’m clinging tight to them. Not that there’s not room for new friends. But now there’s only room for GOOD friends. People that I can invest back into and who I truly know have my back when things suck. I have several of these in my life and I’m not letting go. But you go through funny stuff with your friendships during your twenties too. And I think part of it is due to insecurities and not really, truly knowing and understanding what you need and want from them. And most importantly, what you can give back. I feel like when you’re in your twenties you’re sort of searching for this identity. You’re trying to find your place in this world and hoping (fingers crossed tight!) that people LIKE YOU BACK. I can honestly remember the moment about six months ago when I realized that I truly don’t care if people don’t like me back.

I mean, you always want people to like who you are. DUH.

But I seriously don’t worry about it anymore. Some people like me. Some people don’t. Whatev. I’ve got the people close to me who count. People who’ve NEVER walked away when stuff got hard for us. People who I know love me. So I’m good.

What I’m trying to say is, I finally feel like I know who I am. I feel a new level of confidence that I’ve discovered within the past six months and it seriously doesn’t scare me to turn thirty next year. I feel excited about the future and ready to move on from the chapter that is my twenties. I’ve learned some great things. Experienced some awesome stuff. Had some heartache. But I’ve had a lot of fun too. I’m exhilarated to see what my thirties holds. I hear that each new decade only gets better.

Gosh I sure hope that’s true.

So here’s to living the last year of my twenties well! And to experiencing life with a new found confidence, zeal and love for life like I’ve never known before.

And yep. Here come the baby pictures. I’m not ashamed.