100 posts

13 Aug

I have reached 100 blog posts!

It’s pretty crazy considering that just a few months ago I was completely anti-blog. Jason would always try to convince me to blog, “You’ll love it,” he’d say, “It’s just like journaling.” But I would always stand my ground and refuse to start a blog.

Until I caved and started this blog.

I think starting this blog could have been one of the best things I’ve ever done in my life. That might sound weird and a little extreme to you, but it’s really helped me in a lot of ways. It’s helped me to get out of a creative funk that I’ve been in for the past 5 years (yep, you read that right- 5 years). It’s helped me to actually journal again and get my creative and not so creative thoughts out. It helped give me direction when we were at the beginning of dreaming of our photography business. It helped me to dream again; to wonder what I could write about tomorrow, and the next day, and the next. It got me thinking about my thoughts again- and channeling them somewhere. It helped me to think about something other than being a mom.

Even though this blog is all about my journey as a mom.

When I had Cruz, I saw myself start to stop being Jessica and start just being a mom. It’s so easy to slip into that, especially if you stay home. I saw myself start to go there, and it scared me. It scared me and I didn’t know what to do to get out.

Even as I write that it sounds ridiculous! But it’s the truth. I was at the beginning of letting myself go. I was watching it happen, beginning with the inside, and I didn’t know what to do to stop it. I’ve told different people that this blog may have just saved my life, in a sense.

Yes, I know that’s extreme.

But it really gave me something to look forward to everyday. Something that was just for ME. It pulled me out of a creative funk and got the creativity flowing. It began something in me that has me where I am today. Today I can tell you that I am working full time at a job I desperately love as a photographer.

I don’t know if I would have ever gotten there, had I not started blogging. Had I not started writing out my frustrations, dreams and even products I like. It helped me to dream BIG. These past 100 posts have probably been the most significant days of my entire life.

So today, I am looking forward to hundreds more posts. I’m looking forward to hundreds more significant days. Hundreds more thoughts, dreams, stories, and recipes. I am excited for the future.

And it’s bright.

Cruz & Mommy @ 2 Months Old*Look how little Cruz is in this picture! He’s 2 months old- where does the time go?! 


3 Responses to “100 posts”

  1. katie jones November 23, 2010 at 8:08 pm #

    Girl, I totally feel you on this one.

    • jesswilliams November 23, 2010 at 10:55 pm #

      It’s so great to know that we aren’t alone, huh? Thanks girl! 🙂

  2. babyglende August 20, 2012 at 8:36 pm #

    I know this is an old post but I totally know what you mean when you start to sto being you and turn into mom! Somehow I stumbled upon your blog today, after searching for: ‘babywise, teething, mom’ your blog post on Cruz’s two bottom teeth popped up. 🙂

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