I feel like every time I sit down to write these letters to you, the only reasonable way I find myself starting each letter is with “I can’t believe how big you are getting.” But it’s very true. And it’s a thought that crosses my mind every single day. And I’m told that it will cross my mind every day for the rest of my life.
You are into everything these days. You love to point at the lamps, lights, fans, windows, even the microwave. You are curious about everything. And when I explain things to you, you contemplate everything that I am saying and take it all in. It’s as if you’re an adult listening to me intently. And you look at me like to want to respond with a full sentence, but you can’t quite yet. But you are very, very smart. Daddy and I can already tell.
I am eager to know what your gifts and talents are. What will I be driving you to and from on Saturday mornings? Who are your friends going to be? Are you going to love Jesus? There’s so many things I wonder about you. There’s so many things that I can’t wait to find out! You surprise me with new things every day. It’s such a blessing watching you grow up. You, sweet Cruz, are the biggest blessing of all my life. When I was pregnant with you, I only thought about how I was going to have a baby. And how I was going to be a new mom. And how I was going to do the best I could with Daddy to raise you right, along with any future brothers or sisters.
And then you were born.
And I’m not sure what we did right to deserve such an amazing little guy like you. I had no idea that you were going to be the most interesting, coolest little kid with the best personality ever. You have only exceeded my wildest expectations Cruzer. And all you’ve done is be YOU these past 14 months. And these have been the hardest most fulfilling 14 months of my entire life.
And I wouldn’t change any single thing about it.
I love you my Cruzer, with all of my heart.